In a situation where I just couldn't stop thinking
A situation which takes me to the old days
The days I even never knew that existed in my memory
A situation I face mixed with pain and irritaion
A situation I try to smile outside
when I hide everything inside
It's neither the pain of being deceived
nor the pain of being hurt
Do u know?
It's something cruel...
something unbearable and unjust
cos it's the pain of "missing"
missing something for which I am not destined
should I believe things will change for better
or...
should I rush towards my heart's need
bitter truth, how much ever I try
I cant reach what I need
It's too hard for me to digest that,
I don't belong to you
still..
I wish ...
I could live "that life" once at least in my dreams
to cherish, to feel, to smile, to love
ultimately to fall in love with you again !
But..
In the end I stand motionless
thinking, thinking and only thinking
with the sweetness of your memories