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There was a weird pain
when her phone flashes his name
she thought its a revisit
her fingers confused her to text
her mind convinced her to read
and
her heart convicted her to give a rep(l)ay
Unlike her old days
she is strong today
"are u free today" he asked
only to share her body with him
She knew his need was pleasure
She knew her need was love
caught between pleasure and love
there was a concussion in her mind
slowly she replied
"why so?"
and she tasted her tears when it rolled deep down her lips
she grew....
more stronger
more brave
more confident
terminating her feelings
she cleared her fingers not to text
she convinced her mind not to bother
and
ultimately
she convicted her heart saying
after all..
He is an "unwanted visitor"

And it happened 

She texted him first
only to confirm whether that was
"him"
He replied her in a second
confirming that it was just him
They continued their conversation
starting from texting till dating
They ate together
roamed together
And at last
slept together
Now she texted him again
only to confirm whether she is
his love?
He replied after a day
confirming that he needs sometime
she continued to ask reasons
she did her best
she stayed true
No matter...
The relationship continued
but only she loved him
only she longed for him
only she took him out
and only she paid the bills
Now she texted him again
only to confirm that still
she longs for him
He replied after a week
confirming that he needs to settle
she continued to wait
she did her best
she loved him truly
whatsoever...
The relationship continued
but only she waited
for all the seasons
only she could be patient
despite his injustice
years passed...
Now she texted him again
only to confirm that still she waits
he replied after a month
confirming that he needs to earn a lot
she continued to wait
wait...wait...wait for long years
many years passed..
now he texted her
only to confirm whether she still
thinks of him
He received a reply in a second
A text that confirms from her phone
of course she still waits
but not in this universe

The calendar showed
It was 23 June
I know I went again
To recheck
I pulled my pal outside
only to confirm whether
that was "she"
yes...there she was
Looked more beautiful
A real beauty that consumed all
Beauty apps
I spoke
I chat
I laughed
just with her
only with her forgetting the
whole earth
I don't remember
When did I sleep
When did I wake up
when did I study
When did I eat
But I did remember
That she was always in my mind
Days passed
She didn't express
but I did
slowly and steadily
The calendar said
It was 8 august
And my mind was made up
for a proper proposal
And it happened...
Yes...many things happened
I was happened to see herself
Her real color
The color which rejected me
The color which made sure
"I was not the one"
The color which screwed me
with an attitude
Again...
Days passed yet
Mine was not
I spoke
I chat
I laughed
But not with her
And it happened again
"Hey, he has broken his head"
My friend screamed
People around were shocked
To see a person hurts himself
with a beer bottle
"Are you okay? are you mad?"
Another voice screamed
I slowly opened my eyes
I know I couldn't see
It was blur
Yet the date was clear
The calendar spoke
It was 23 June

If you hate me
Give me a second
See my eyes which directs you to my brain
Brain that always think about you
Go to my vocal and dig
since it always speak about you
Check my ears too because it always wanna hear you
And finally
Go to my heart which beats for you
Still its your choice
If you love me stay along with it
even then
wait
If u hate me
Give me a second