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I was so mean
I now know, I was blind
Oh my beloved ! I
sincerely apologize for my overlook
I now know, I was blind
to notice your care
to notice your power
to notice your truth
and....finally
to notice you "yourself"
I was so stupid
to hurt someone like you
I was so unjust
to unsupport someone like you
Oh my beloved ! I
sincerely apologize for my overlook
For now I know
your will guides me
your plan protects me
and for ever...
you will never stop loving me
Now,
I do regret
I do repent
Because I know, I am not blind now
and
Because I came to know that
It was only me
who nailed you on the cross. 

Its not that everyday I wake up
like this...
Its not that everyday I pray
like this...
Its not that everyday I react
like this...
Its not that everyday I smile
like this...
Why this day is always special
Is it only for me ?
or
for others too
Whether I feel special
or this day makes me so
I know I can't be born again
Maybe....that's why
I come across a day like this...
To be born again
To smile again
To cry again
and...why not
ultimately
To live again
on this BIRTHDAY

Yes it spoke to me a lot
Not your lips but
your eyes
when your palms hugged
when your shoulders embraced
your eyes spoke to me
its just seemed to be looking
yet my heart understood it's quest
your eyes conveyed too much
I wonder
Is that your powerful weapon
or
your worst weakness
whatever it could be...
It has the power
The power to convey anything
The power to share something
Even when your lips were zipped
your eyes never stopped conveying
and.....I wish
I could never stop receiving
Till the end.

And that moment
when tears keep rolling down
uncontrollably
wondering what could be the reason
sensing the fact
realizing the truth
life is after all not fair with everyone
To break the good hearted
To please the fake
To serve the undeserved
To punish the deserved
wish everything has a reason
Atleast then...
ultimately
one gets a reason
to stay alive

There  he stands
someone who prefers silence....
people wondered how one could
always prefer being silent!!!
some said his shyness stops him...
Many murmured he must be reserved ..
above lines only depicted him but her words
just describes him...
There she enters....
her eyes glanced at him still she kept moving...
slowly her diary spoke about him...
"He is neither shy nor reserved
he is someone who understood the society
society which runs behind mere imitations
which lack true freedom
society which loves to wear masks
rather than real face
he became interesting not because he is silent
but
because society made him so"
ultimately ...
she penned about the real tears in a fake chortle 

I don't know
I don't remember exactly
I was hurt
I was humiliated
I was put into pleasure but
mixed with pain
I don't know why I even bore all that
I don't know to explain explicitly
At times...
I wonder why I don't know
May be both my heart and mind
Don't know
That.....after all
It loves you unconditionally <3