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In a situation where I just couldn't stop thinking
A situation which takes me to the old days
The days I even never knew that existed in my memory
A situation I face mixed with pain and irritaion
A situation I try to smile outside
when I hide everything inside
It's neither the pain of being deceived
nor the pain of being hurt
Do u know?
It's something cruel...
something unbearable and unjust
cos it's the pain of "missing"
missing something for which I am not destined
should I believe things will change for better
or...
should I rush towards my heart's need
bitter truth, how much ever I try
I cant reach what I need
It's too hard for me to digest that,
I don't belong to you
still..
I wish ...
I could live "that life" once at least in my dreams
to cherish, to feel, to smile, to love
ultimately to fall in love with you again !
But..
In the end I stand motionless
thinking, thinking and only thinking
with the sweetness of your memories

who gave you rights?
who gave you such freedom
Is it my heart? or my mind?
how have you entered and started haunting
so ruthless that you are haunting after years...
I thought you are always sweet
but
right now you are my worst pain
you are so precious that I long for you
just to have you back as you existed
one who made me smile
one who never went missing
one who stood beside all my circumstances
Now, you got the power
to turn my smile into tears
to make me to live in my past
ultimately to make me realize
"change" is the worst punishment
one can go through
you are neither my wish nor my liking
rather...
you are just my need
In reality
please come back once again to me
My own sweet memories

I felt my mind was too off
where both music and ride failed to comfort
still...
My heart never knew this
When my phone blinked his name
When I heard his voice
"I felt the same"
How I used to feel once !
My heart never understood that
it loves him still....
There is a bunch of happiness
mixed with loads of pain
Happy that my love never changed
yet..
Sad that I can never be his love
His tone rewound my mind and brought back my smile
Meanwhile leaving a drop of tear in my eyes
Longing to go back to those days
Where love was much expressed in the form of friendship
It's painful to accept certain changes, I said
"But change is the only thing that doesn't change " he said
"But don't worry, even this will change "he continued
Without knowing the fact that her love for him
NEVER CHANGED !

Every night when the clock strikes
Each minute which denotes life's reduction
Every mile that distances me and you
Each word that acts neither as a sword nor as a feather
I stand bewildered...
Drenched only in your thoughts
In a world where our actions speak louder than words
I chose to remain quiet
In a place where any moment might be our last
I chose to be numb
As I encountered my unspoken truths floated in the air
and my hidden pain built in the chest
I didn't fail to realize...
A lot of us don't speak when we need
rather we choose to become numb or quiet
And I felt pathetic
To find me "one" among the many

It was the most loveliest day
when you were in blue and white...
The day which I least expected
but the color I most expected..
couldn't believe.... yet I have to
Cos,
"We are celebrating our 100 days of journey"
I never dreamt of you!
I never thought about you!
still...I cherish, because
I am gonna live with you !
Neither in my dreams nor in my thoughts
but, in your heart!
Now...
It is the most memorable day
where  we both share "white"
The day we both most expected
couldn't believe....yet we have to
Cos,
"We are celebrating our 100 days of LOVE" 

One among the billion??
Nope, she is among the uncountable
Among those stars
which light up the sky
In the darkest hours
Maybe the light is small
Maybe she gets surrounded by darkness
But, she doesn't cover herself
she isn't scared
Rather, she is like the phoenix
Never fails to rise from the ash
I can do nothing but admire
The strength she is endowed with
And take pride in calling her my angel
The star that guides me in the dark
She might be among the uncountable
But she never fails to shine
Like a Star and my own star she is!

Never feel like that..